Today I am going to love You More Than Yesterday…..

I hope one day i can be the guy that sit beside you like that....

buying a house near a cliff like that.... and having our new life over there.....

Sometime when I think about it, it really makes me wonder what is my role over here, I mean in this planet. That happened before I found you….For now on I am glad in everything I got because one reason change me all of the sudden when I think of it carefully sometime ago….

The reason that made me want to write more is because god made me here then let me have had a chance to find you, know you and have a chance to breathe with you at the same time. If I was from another planet then I don’t have a chance to see you then. Even in the same world, if I was another creature so I still don’t have a chance to know you. That is why I am glad and proud to know you and have a chance to see you here. I really appreciated what god gives me…. So no matter what happened “ Today I am going to love you more than yesterday ”

I am happy to be born in this part of the world that can hold the same citizenship and leaving in the same nation state with you. Furthermore I am glad that we were in the same high school before. I am a coward back then but now not anymore….

Even though we are not very closed or just know each other but your everything had already carved a massive mark in my tiny heart; so that I will never forget about you. The mark that you carved on me was the main driving force for me and makes my life more meaningful than ever. I never like someone that is more meaningful than you, so you are the first and also my last. I am happy to be born to serve you and be your servant…

I secretly like you and you’re the only one in my heart so I dare to guarantee that you’re the last one that my heart can accept although that was since 7 years ago when I met you in school. Because since I recognized you as my another half, everything really went smooth for me so if I can see you everyday and night and also share everything I could with you then it could be the greatest thing ever happened in my life. This is because I did everything with an objective. The objective was you, I always think that I am doing this for the sake of you and you are the important force for my soul to move on.

That is why I am happy to be born in this world and be a human that ever met you. All I wanted to be is just like an actor or singer that entertains you. In other way round, I just want somebody like you and only allow you to see and know what I am here for…. I believe everyone do have their purpose to live in this world. For example, trees provide us oxygen and food. The same thing going to happen to you, I am the tree, and then you’re the things that need oxygen. So I will continually provide you until somebody chop the tree down. My soul and spirit still around you and provide you anything you need.

It was since 7 years ago, that my purpose in this world seems to be clear and straight forward that I will be the actor and singer to you. Make you relax and pampered all the way I can. When the winds blow, I will be your kite that flying around and make you wonder how tall the kite can reach. When there is sunshine, I will be your shade that covers you from dazzling heat. When you’re hungry, I can be your chef and anything you need. I will run a circus show or become a clown whenever you’re sad.

Some of the line I may repeated for a few times but the reason I purposely repeating those lines was because I want to make it clear to you that no matter what I will waiting for you and keep remind myself what I need to do when you’re with me…..or until you pull out of the game or the end of me…..

I am not afraid to tell you here that recently in my mind got lots of methods and reasons to make you happy. I know you’re can be as happy as you always are without me. But who know, with me the happy time that you’re going to endured with me would be more colorful than you can imagine. Just like toasted bread with butter is delicious but you never try out the toasted bread with nasi lemak paste….. ehehehe……

The End of my boring life soon…..

Erm few days ago, a shocking phone call from a company's manager says they are offering me a job. So the boring life that I endured all this time is going to end soon after the 1st of July 2008. Is it good or bad for a freeman like me??? hmmmm i don't know only god know what is going to happen to me after this...

Hey a free thinker saying this word seems unappropriate rite... ok recently i became more and more to a religious man though...Maybe praying sometimes really help hehehe... i never pray for a job, girl or money ok.... But i pray to get a pass in my exam last time in the end it really works.... That shocked me!!! Effort must be thr of course lah hehehehe.

Why i didn't pray to get a girl i like??? if i doing so i might get her but i didn't..... It's because it's not fair for you and my competitor. In my opinion, getting your love must using the fair and square method n effort must be there. Effort that i am going to put on you must be transparent not a trick or something so that i can beaten up any guy that admired you with my own style.

I am not going to use force or something else.... so that i can wholly win your heart and not going to share with any guy out there.Everyone have their own right to like someone else but if you like somebody else it's ok for me. I won interfere you but all i hope for was giving me a chance to become the person you like.

I can transform to a person you like no matter how tough the hurddle is. That is why i wrote this blog for you.... I can change anything and become anything you like even using my whole life to pay for that. Hehe i know you're not the person that want your fren to change into another being right????

All i want you to know was i can become more than a friend to you and also more than a partner in your life. So if you want someone to be rely on and i can tell you that i am one of them for you anytime... if someone can do better than me then i can do the best and the rest for you.

I can't find any other person that i can share my life with and the only one that my soul and heart can accept was you... I can't erase you in my memory since the first time i saw you and i cannot forget you no matter what......

All i can say in this blog end here because of lightning that seems going to strike my modem so i better post it now and offline now. If there anything i will continue post it here though... Remember to catch up with it hehehe

My way of sharing love with you....

My dream way of sharing the best with you was here within this map!!!! trust me if you give me a chance i will make it real for you the only one....


Erm i thought i suffered insomia recently hehehe since i graduated. Becasue of studying last minute for the final late at night and rest during morning. I've changed my bed time since..... i only got 1 subject for my final exam but this subject was the stuff i sucked in so a bit pressure and also hopes in it plus the lecturer was the worst in my Uni though.... no mercy, not strict but lousy in teaching quality, totally sucked and out of this world. Then the hopes got two parts first It is because if i passed this subject i can declared myself as a graduate bahhh hehehehe Now i can........and the possibility of stop studying for life but it's impossible in my parents thought though.

Second part as usual.....

The thing that still haunted me for quite sometime is whether i am still single or attached was the sucked stuff ever bother me too lol. The second hopes was to show somebody i admired for a long time that i can stand along with her since i know she was good in her studies. Sure she will be graduated from Uni that y i dun wan her to loose face becoz of me with nothing to stand along with her. "I am not here to compare with her" I am here to show you the effort that i putted in wasn't for myself but for both of us though.... Erm maybe i am rush in this but i can give you time to think about it until the end of me.....hehehe i dunno when is the end so please consider me as soon as possible ok lol. I am a bit out which asking something crazy right?? but one thing for sure that we can start all over again from the beginning from friend to couple???

Willing to give me a chance to show you who i really was??? I can't assure you fortune, title or anything that beyond my ability but I can guarantee you'll never get hurt, or being alone, boredom, hunger and etc... Furthermore pure love of the highest order, fun and happiness was the guarantee from me to you. I already reviewed some of my plan that i wanna share with you to some of my closed friends not more than 10 of them.

The plan that i am going to share with you only, when we are stable in relationship lol.... (" this is a promise for life....dun laugh for some of you out thr who's reading this")

1st we're going to Caribbean Island for vacation when we're stable in relationship.This is the place that we are going to have our lunch in Caribbean. This place called Negril where a lot of couple spend their vacation here. So this is what i planned to do during our lunch time when we're thr one day.....

After Lunch we are going to have a walk at the Caribbean seaside similar to this. So this is the real scence that i promise to go with you. If i got the chance to share with you hehe....

After a walked in sunshine Caribbean you'll be thirsty and need some drinks, so i will bring you cocktail, fresh local fruits some cookies to a place similar to the image below that make you pampered, furthermore enjoy the view of the Caribbean with me.

The place that i will recommend you to have a break after a walked and have our cocktail here...

This is a place that we got to go hand in hand and waiting under the shaded hut for sunset view of the Caribbean.....



The sunset view would be like this, at the same time we are having our wine and some cheese cake with fresh and juicy local fruits..... after this we are heading home to the magnificent hotel in the photo below....

This is how our resort will looks like in the Caribbean....fantastic isn't it...... After a changed and bath we are heading for out first dinner in the pic below..... what do you think???? heheheh


Dinner under the stars, we are going to have our dinner in a place like this in Caribbean island... From Jaimaca to Puerto Rico as long as I got the chance of sharing my time with you then i will be the happiest man on earth. Becasue sharing all i got with you was my dream come true. We can have anything thr from red wine to champagne... in terms of food we can have roasted lobster to grill fish plus some of the delicious dessert..... Then we can take some photo in a night like this and chit chating until you decide to leave....



After this we will have a go to the local club or pub to enjoy the local night life and music plus some of the famous local produced rum... "I am not alcoholic ok hahahah LOL" I juz want to try everything with you that all...... I really hope that you can join me or give me a chance to share my time and soul with you !!!! I'll never dissapoint you........

The same lyric everyday and night

Niah Cave

Miri City View

Marina Park Miri

Last weekend me and some friends visited Miri, the place full of history that i never been to. So it really fun been there becoz of the environment, new friends and they are really friendly and nice to hang out with really make the trip more meaningful and i will remember this until the end of my life. Miri a great place to visit.....

It juz like i can't forget you when i first saw you in school, the same kind of feeling but with different taste hehehe. i dunno how to explain and simply put a word "taste" sorry about that. But one thing for sure was, you are always number one or top priority in my mind. whenever i go i will carry you together with me in my mind and heart. I never forget you when i concerntrate on something even during my exams time.

You're the most important factor that make me move on in this world. Everything can be change in a split second but your status in my heart will never get scratch by the challenge of time and feeling. You are my everything and also a part of my soul that run inner me and it helps me to strive for more in my life. i wanted to strive for more in both studies and job. I am confident that i will get a job soon and i will do it properly juz like what i've done in my Uni. I also doing my part time masters at the same time. That is what i planned to do though. what do you think ??? hehehe do you know who i want to refer to.... it is not hard to guess isn't it???

I saying and doing this is becoz of three things, 1st reason is becoz i dun wan to loose ur attention on me, and i dun want other admirer of you got the same level as me. In other games or situation i can be the last and the worst but in front of you i want to be the best and the first one to catch your attention.

Second reason was for me and you, Coz human can only live on this funny planet less than 100 years so i should do something that amaze me myself and make me a worthy being that deserve to live in this world for you.

Third reason is for my family and friends, without them then automatically without me and it ends up without your greatest fan. (greatest fan = Me = Andrew)

Recently i listened to a song called K 歌情人 every night since i discovered it few weeks ago. Wah really nice hehehe when u r alone during a sleepless night. Yah another song was "All my life" it is quite meanighful actually for me a lonely guy hehe.

I am not here to recommend songs to you though but juz wanna to express something that i can't say it to you here or face to face with you. By using those songs, the lyric will explain everything that i wanna tell you when we meet each other next time.

I dunno how to tell you the thing that i want you to know from beneath of my hearth and all i can do is by using "All my life and K歌情人" as a translator. I am not good in expressing myself and i hope you dun mind hehehe. This is how i feel to you when you listening to the songs above you will feel how i feel to you directly or indirectly. Any doubt about my feeling to you can directly contact me though no matter what time and place that you're in.