April 20 was a special day for me and maybe the rest of my life. I can't believe what had happened to me, a great job opportunity awaits me . It was a great job and many people dream about it but the job came and knock on my door hehe.
This coming 22nd i will going to the capital for interview and sit for some writing test in order to enter the company. It was the usual procedures for a company to test the capability of it employees now.
The most important thing is not this one but the another incident that totally surprised me. It's like my favorite football team won the champion league and also the premiership in a season. I really thanks everything or anything that makes her replied me in the message OMG. Really damm happy here, i can't describe the feeling but a relief through my head till toes lol.
The company that invites me for an interview in the capital is already surprise me well becoz i never apply for it though. Nvm put aside the job stuff back to the stuff that i wait and wait for all tis years. I got combo surprise from 2 incidents that really make me feels glad and dunno how and what to do.
First, i juz wanna to thank "you" for your time, consideration, kindness and everything for being my fren. When i think of something important that i wanna to tell you then i will post it here or directly message you in frenster..... Cheers and take care...
I dunno you read this blog o not but it's totally all about you.... no other ppl will be talk about here including me myself... hahaha and of course i am not here to force you to read this lah but juz wanna to tell you the existing of it. Hope you don't get mad about it hehehe, i juz wanna to show how i feel to you....... and my expression to you... if you know who you are???? hehehe one day you will know.... and i also hope you know it soon..........
Apr 19, 2008
Apr 10, 2008
Why , how could this happened to me ???
Recently i got a friend, She's getting married.... Wow great isn't it, i really envy her for what she's going to be. I really wish her all the best from bottom of my heart hehehe. I don't know how long she and her husband started there relationship but i can see that they are committed to each others. Thats great....
I got a new friend, recently in facebook celebrate her 5th years anniversary of relationship with a guy. She still count it day by day, she post a shout out at freindster that yesterday was the first day of the 5th anniversary wow amazing once more.... Really really really cool all the people i know.
From this 2 real life cases, i can see that this society still full of amazing people and people with hearts, loves and committed to each other. It's really happy to know there are people like that around you and really want to wish them all the best !!!!
But this is not the point, come back to me myself.... I really wan to be good to someone actually, but the things is she don't know.. i am not expect she would like me for 5 years and counting it day by day or married me and committed like the cases above. Hell noooooo...... man!!!!!
I just wanna let her know someone in other parts of the world really like her thats all. I just wanna to tell her that before someone that she'll find interest in or suitable appear before me. i would like to be the first one to express to you. That is what i hope for all this year!!! If you're reading this .... I don't want your sympathy or anything else, and all i want is juz your attention ... Izzit sound ridiculous to you ???
I got a new friend, recently in facebook celebrate her 5th years anniversary of relationship with a guy. She still count it day by day, she post a shout out at freindster that yesterday was the first day of the 5th anniversary wow amazing once more.... Really really really cool all the people i know.
From this 2 real life cases, i can see that this society still full of amazing people and people with hearts, loves and committed to each other. It's really happy to know there are people like that around you and really want to wish them all the best !!!!
But this is not the point, come back to me myself.... I really wan to be good to someone actually, but the things is she don't know.. i am not expect she would like me for 5 years and counting it day by day or married me and committed like the cases above. Hell noooooo...... man!!!!!
I just wanna let her know someone in other parts of the world really like her thats all. I just wanna to tell her that before someone that she'll find interest in or suitable appear before me. i would like to be the first one to express to you. That is what i hope for all this year!!! If you're reading this .... I don't want your sympathy or anything else, and all i want is juz your attention ... Izzit sound ridiculous to you ???
Apr 2, 2008
Hulaaaa.....
2 months since i found out your profile, my eagerness to know you have begun.... i started the move to catch your attention. But you seem to abandon your friendster oledi.... coz you didn't log in for couple of months now. What happened? busy? concentrated on ur work or studies? That fine for me hehehe....
I'm a patience guy because i practice that during fishing time both on shore or off shore. During fishing, i encountered a lot of obstacles such as mosquitoes, cold at night and dazzling heat during the morning or afternoon. Just carrying your fishing rod, waiting for the fish to bite my bait. It's just more or less like waiting for somebody you miss. For example you....the one i admired long time ago. Three months of waiting for your reply is nothing for for me coz i had been waiting for 7 years since.
I will keep waiting and waiting until you reply me or until i saw your wedding photo and so on. The think is whether thr is any way to contact you? Since you're in an advance country, it's impossible that you don't have a computer or checking your mail rite???
I really miss you, your reply in any mean and your attention to me day by day. Maybe this is what they called destiny!!!
I'm a patience guy because i practice that during fishing time both on shore or off shore. During fishing, i encountered a lot of obstacles such as mosquitoes, cold at night and dazzling heat during the morning or afternoon. Just carrying your fishing rod, waiting for the fish to bite my bait. It's just more or less like waiting for somebody you miss. For example you....the one i admired long time ago. Three months of waiting for your reply is nothing for for me coz i had been waiting for 7 years since.
I will keep waiting and waiting until you reply me or until i saw your wedding photo and so on. The think is whether thr is any way to contact you? Since you're in an advance country, it's impossible that you don't have a computer or checking your mail rite???
I really miss you, your reply in any mean and your attention to me day by day. Maybe this is what they called destiny!!!
Mar 27, 2008
Crossroad
Sometime really live on the verge of collapse without you... because me myself seem like nobody, no identity, no feeling of being love and also no aim or goal in my head. You're getting more and more important to me since... Without you, i got nobody to ask for when i was in a crossroad like i had one now. Friends of course have help me a lot recently... like telling me what to do next.
Different friend got different opinion and thought that they've provided to me. Really thank you for what you guys had done to me. But the most precious one was your opinion, the thing that i was missing now and maybe forever was your voice or your opinion. That is why i still hanging around like never before is because i don't have the final decision made by you and me. Maybe it seems crazy to ask you to make a decision for me but for me your decision was actually mine though.
What would you think about me when you read this blog as if you know all the contain in this blog here was about you? i think you won't believe that my thought would swerve towards you than myself. This is not stupid and some of you may think so but i don't know what to do for my love one! All i know and able to do was thinking of you and waiting for your order, opinion and etc. But based on my experience, i know you're not that kind of person would order someone to change or ask people to follow what you've decided.
What i've done everyday was wake up and hope for your reply in any medium available.
I may not know much about you but i guarantee i can love you more than anyone else except your parents hehe.... I can't compare with them and also not qualify to compare with because the concept of love is totally different. hehehe
Hope you will reply me as soon as possible!!!!
Different friend got different opinion and thought that they've provided to me. Really thank you for what you guys had done to me. But the most precious one was your opinion, the thing that i was missing now and maybe forever was your voice or your opinion. That is why i still hanging around like never before is because i don't have the final decision made by you and me. Maybe it seems crazy to ask you to make a decision for me but for me your decision was actually mine though.
What would you think about me when you read this blog as if you know all the contain in this blog here was about you? i think you won't believe that my thought would swerve towards you than myself. This is not stupid and some of you may think so but i don't know what to do for my love one! All i know and able to do was thinking of you and waiting for your order, opinion and etc. But based on my experience, i know you're not that kind of person would order someone to change or ask people to follow what you've decided.
What i've done everyday was wake up and hope for your reply in any medium available.
I may not know much about you but i guarantee i can love you more than anyone else except your parents hehe.... I can't compare with them and also not qualify to compare with because the concept of love is totally different. hehehe
Hope you will reply me as soon as possible!!!!
Mar 20, 2008
secret reviewed
Today was just another ordinary day for me here in my hometown. When i woke up, it was already 3pm in the afternoon. I walked through the kitchen to find my so called "breakfast" in the afternoon. It was a holiday today, so my mom doesn't cook, so we usually buy take away food for our meal. I found my favorite "pork leg rice" inside the cupboard. It is not a very healthy food for me because of my weight but it doesn't matter....in the end i just finish it without any leftover.
At night, i went to a bbq party at my friend's house at 7 sumthing... we grill all kind of food, and drink all kinds of drink available... that seems like a pig hehe. When time goes by... me and some of my old friends talking about something related to relationship stuffs and so on.
Suddenly, one of them says i saw ur blog writing about a gal u admire for 7 years; another one said i saw the story in my friendster. Then there were busy figure it out which gal would make me admire her for so many years. Because in my previous blog, i got reviewed that the girl was from my previous high school and also in science stream, one of my fren went to her room and get our school magazine coz we're from the same school and also same batch at that time.
Finally there try to ask me one by one on every gal's name from science stream, i think most of the girls in science stream had been mentioned. It's because at that time our school only got 4 science classes so it's easy to narrow down. There asked which one was my long term target and i had been forced to tell the truth because all of the "interrogators" were my ex-classmate in high skool which were close to me. I can't hide it anymore!!!!
One day i would review your name here as well, but hope you won't angry with me coz it juz another way to propose to a girl i like the most. This is the only way to express myself to you and also the way that i think is fair for me and you, because you can choose to know me, like me or ignore me.
There is still another hope that i think i can't achieve in time was this coming august graduation ceremony. Of course you can't be there it's because you don't know my existence.... don't you?? It' not your fault, this is totally my fault if u wanna blame me, you can juz blame anytime you want. I would never get mad about it, I think.... I am not too late to express my love to you right?? or wrong??? i am not complaining or blame you, all i did here was juz for expressing myself and also blame myself to be such a useless and coward guy.
But once i see you in Kuching, or know you're here.... would not let the chance blow anymore... Please give me a chance, juz a chance to know you or to be with you.
Maybe i'm not qualify for to ask you to give me a chance. But please!!! Still please give me a chance to know you. i am not idiot or maniac or something. It's because love you too much!!!
At night, i went to a bbq party at my friend's house at 7 sumthing... we grill all kind of food, and drink all kinds of drink available... that seems like a pig hehe. When time goes by... me and some of my old friends talking about something related to relationship stuffs and so on.
Suddenly, one of them says i saw ur blog writing about a gal u admire for 7 years; another one said i saw the story in my friendster. Then there were busy figure it out which gal would make me admire her for so many years. Because in my previous blog, i got reviewed that the girl was from my previous high school and also in science stream, one of my fren went to her room and get our school magazine coz we're from the same school and also same batch at that time.
Finally there try to ask me one by one on every gal's name from science stream, i think most of the girls in science stream had been mentioned. It's because at that time our school only got 4 science classes so it's easy to narrow down. There asked which one was my long term target and i had been forced to tell the truth because all of the "interrogators" were my ex-classmate in high skool which were close to me. I can't hide it anymore!!!!
One day i would review your name here as well, but hope you won't angry with me coz it juz another way to propose to a girl i like the most. This is the only way to express myself to you and also the way that i think is fair for me and you, because you can choose to know me, like me or ignore me.
There is still another hope that i think i can't achieve in time was this coming august graduation ceremony. Of course you can't be there it's because you don't know my existence.... don't you?? It' not your fault, this is totally my fault if u wanna blame me, you can juz blame anytime you want. I would never get mad about it, I think.... I am not too late to express my love to you right?? or wrong??? i am not complaining or blame you, all i did here was juz for expressing myself and also blame myself to be such a useless and coward guy.
But once i see you in Kuching, or know you're here.... would not let the chance blow anymore... Please give me a chance, juz a chance to know you or to be with you.
Maybe i'm not qualify for to ask you to give me a chance. But please!!! Still please give me a chance to know you. i am not idiot or maniac or something. It's because love you too much!!!
Mar 17, 2008
Another MTJ.com project
Last Saturday, me and some friends went for a trip. This trip meant for BBQ, camping and fishing. We reach the destination at about 4 pm, do all the necessary stuff that needed to do before the sky turn dark. Gathering all the wood that need to setup the camp fire and also cooking.
Here are some video that show our camp fire and also the situation that we're in.... Hence i only shows up in this collection of video once hehe. Because i am afraid of being caught lol JKD....
In the following video contain some of the restriction conversation that important for someone in the pass but now not anymore... Especially the guy in the blue t-shirt hehehe. You will know him, if you're from kuching high lol. He's the second twins in my class.
Here are some video that show our camp fire and also the situation that we're in.... Hence i only shows up in this collection of video once hehe. Because i am afraid of being caught lol JKD....
In the following video contain some of the restriction conversation that important for someone in the pass but now not anymore... Especially the guy in the blue t-shirt hehehe. You will know him, if you're from kuching high lol. He's the second twins in my class.
Mar 16, 2008
Here Without You
*** A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me ***
This lyric more or less express what i feel right now. Really hard to imagine someone like me would write something like that in the blog. Because i pretend like don't care about my relationship in front of people i know but in reality, i care actually, and really really care. People who know me for so long didn't know that because they would think i just write it for fun. "Except some of you do know bout it" Also i didn't talk about relationship stuff often and this is because i can't get what i want.. I'm not capable of criticizing or comment others coz i don have 1. This is what i am and also what i feel right now.
According to some research, you will be more relief when you do what you like. Even though i went fishing last night but still thinking about you.
I made an effort to get to know you by asking some of your ex-classmate. It is the first time i do so since 7 years ago because i saw your friendster profile that displayed your graduation pics and i also graduated recently so it won't affect our studies anymore. This is what motivates me to move again.
i asked them regarding all about you but they just replied me that you're a quiet and a soft spoken girl. That what i got about you... I am really sorry for knowing you so little about you and yet admired you...I don't know what i can do if you're really my girlfriend now. But don't worry, it doesn't matter how quiet you are, and i can make you speak more when time goes by. And i am confident that i can cheer you up when you're down. when you're hungry i can cook for you. Anything you want me to do just order me then i will fulfill you until you satisfied. This is not for one or two days but depending on your wish. If you want me to do all this stuff forever until the last breath of my life and i will do it and eager to do it without any complain.
The lyric i post above have show what in my mind and also what i wanna to say to you if i can see you now.
You're the one i can't let go and also can't forget until the end of my life....
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me ***
This lyric more or less express what i feel right now. Really hard to imagine someone like me would write something like that in the blog. Because i pretend like don't care about my relationship in front of people i know but in reality, i care actually, and really really care. People who know me for so long didn't know that because they would think i just write it for fun. "Except some of you do know bout it" Also i didn't talk about relationship stuff often and this is because i can't get what i want.. I'm not capable of criticizing or comment others coz i don have 1. This is what i am and also what i feel right now.
According to some research, you will be more relief when you do what you like. Even though i went fishing last night but still thinking about you.
I made an effort to get to know you by asking some of your ex-classmate. It is the first time i do so since 7 years ago because i saw your friendster profile that displayed your graduation pics and i also graduated recently so it won't affect our studies anymore. This is what motivates me to move again.
i asked them regarding all about you but they just replied me that you're a quiet and a soft spoken girl. That what i got about you... I am really sorry for knowing you so little about you and yet admired you...I don't know what i can do if you're really my girlfriend now. But don't worry, it doesn't matter how quiet you are, and i can make you speak more when time goes by. And i am confident that i can cheer you up when you're down. when you're hungry i can cook for you. Anything you want me to do just order me then i will fulfill you until you satisfied. This is not for one or two days but depending on your wish. If you want me to do all this stuff forever until the last breath of my life and i will do it and eager to do it without any complain.
The lyric i post above have show what in my mind and also what i wanna to say to you if i can see you now.
You're the one i can't let go and also can't forget until the end of my life....
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